Rarely

I listen to you playing piano and am immediately transported to the year when you toured Russia and made that movie. You angrily responded to my comments. That put even more distance between us. When the music is playing all that space and time disappear.

You know, you're playing that part now – the one I suggested you play – of a slightly deranged genius and it suits you well.

Which brings me here now, although it doesn't stop me from being there, too. And it doesn't matter. All that time is like water over the falls. Falling because it has to and making everything clean and beautiful with its mist.

10 Years After

You thought I'd never get over you. Yet you see I've nearly forgotten you.

Today I recycled the lesser lovely greeting cards and the wretched letter of complaint detailing your faults and my anger. I've always been surprised by that letter because as time goes on your virtues grow and your faults disappear. Thus the way of loss and languishing. In another ten years you will be a dream in full and I will remember none of your disadvantages. Well, perhaps one or two of the more choice memorable ones.

However, I do not languish today. Today i rejoice and look forward to the future. I finished another crochet hat and I'm proudly wearing it right this minute. Ha!

Dull is as Dull Does

dark and dreary
pondering
and oh so weary
yet I shall rise
as I always do
to dream
and be happy
scooby dooby do

Not Seeing

Once the realization is accepted that even between the closest human beings infinite distances continue, a wonderful living side by side can grow, if they succeed in loving the distance between them which makes it possible for each to see the other whole against the sky.

—Rainer Maria Rilke

Sometimes I can't see for looking. If you are here it is because you heart has led you here. Welcome. I have missed you.

Songs of the Evening: Who Knows Where the Time Goes - Judy Collins; Help Me - Joni Mitchell